It’s all over now.

Today, ok well yesterday, just after 9:30pm my beloved mother and best friend decided she has had enough and went to join God and all His angels in His kingdom.  Mom is now pain free, and free of the horrible shell she’s been stuck with for the past year and a half.  And she’s finally, once and for all, rid of Ron!!  The best part, I think.  

Hospice called me Friday at work to tell me mom had taken a severe down turn.  She had not eaten, drank, or taken any of her medications since Wednesday.  This morning they put her on oxygen.  She could no longer speak with words, but she spoke volumes with her beautiful green eyes and did manage to grace us with several smiles today.  

She got to see Mikayla, Chris and I.  My brother managed to not be a total idiot and came down to see her.  I did have to put up with sitting with Ron all day, but we did manage to keep it pretty neutral.

They took her to the same mortuary that took care of her parents, so I know she will be in good hands.  My worry is that Ron now has the ultimate decision, to bury her proper in a casket, or have her cremated.  Mom and I are Catholic, so she needs to be buried properly…  I fear Ron will do as he wants, as usual.  He will most likely choose the cheapr path of cremation.  This does upset me, because I know it’s not what she would want.  Unfortunatly, as it’s gone this whole time, I will get absolutely no say in the matter.

I had to come on her and blog this.  In a way, it is also a tribute to my mom.  My mom was my best friend.  We did everything together.  Shopping, movies, you name it.  She was the most wonderful, giving person I’ve ever known, and I know she will be truly missed by a large amount of friends as well as our family in New England.

I do wish she had been better during my pregnancy, and that she had had more time with Mikayla.  It truly saddens me that my daughter will never really know her grandmother..  who would have spoiled her rotten and I would have loved it!!  Mom was so excited when I finally got pregnant last year.

Rest forever in peace Mom!  I love you forever and and going to miss you so much!!!

To all my buddies here, and especially my Tribe…  thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here for me.  To support me and love me through this journey.  I will most likely be taking the week off from work, but I don’t know how much I will be on BS.  Will see..  I’ll probably need you guys a lot. 

29 Comments so far

  1. Maria @ July 19th, 2009

    What a beautiful blog. Sorry to hear that your mom has passed away. It sounds though that she is now at peace and free from pain.
    Thinking of you

  2. tammylamb @ July 19th, 2009

    So sorry for the loss of your Mom. I rejoice that she has found her way to a blessed reunion with our Lord, but my heart breaks knowing how much she is missed by you, her friends and family.

  3. gallavant @ July 19th, 2009

    So sorry about your mom.

  4. infjoy @ July 19th, 2009

    Very sorry for your loss. I hope it does comfort you that she is at peace now. My prayers are with you.

  5. grapeape @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so glad that she is no longer suffering. My heart goes out to you and those others whose lives she touched. I know you are all sad for the loss, but take solace in her relief. I think you have already. Big hugs.

  6. renee68 @ July 19th, 2009

    I am sorry to hear this Nicole. Take care…my prayers are with you and your family.

  7. somemansdream @ July 19th, 2009

    What a beautiful blog tribute to your mom. While i’m sorry that she’s gone. I am happy that she is finally free of the pain that she was enduring. Your mom sounds like a beautiful woman and she would be proud of you. Take care girl…hugs..

  8. kerstinaparton @ July 19th, 2009

    i am so sorry for your loss. And I hope you will have strength in this difficult time …
    And it is so obvious how much you loved your mom. She was a very lucky lady to have such a wonderful daughter.
    Prayers coming your way during this hard time

  9. khmerbeauty @ July 19th, 2009

    I love you sweetie. I got off the phone with you and couldn’t stop crying for your loss.

    ((((((((((((((NICK)))))))))))))))))))

  10. not2late4tina @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so sorry for your loss, you will be in my prayers.

  11. AuntTeeTee @ July 19th, 2009

    Very sorry to hear about the loss of your mother but happy to hear she was a believer and rests now in His arms.

  12. wildcats @ July 19th, 2009

    (((((((((((((Nicole))))))))))

  13. kyliejo @ July 19th, 2009

    sorry for your loss

  14. kamaperry @ July 19th, 2009

    Oh Nicole. I do know how you feel, my mom was all of that to me, too. I am fighting tears as I write this, you need ANYTHING, you call, ok? Here for you.

  15. NicoleM @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so sorry for you loss. It sounds like your mom was a wonderful women and will get to go to a better place with out pain or sickness. Hang in there and I hope that for you and your mom’s that Ron does what she wants. Take it easy and we are always here.

  16. staceycapps @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so sorry your mom passed away!!! She sounds like she was an awesome person! Share with your daughter her strengths and her beauty. It will give your daughter pride to be of lineage of someone so great! (((HUGS)))

  17. AndreaJacobs @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so sorry for your loss and I hope that this person does what is best for your family instead of what is best for him. My thoughts are with you. ***hugs***

  18. yellow @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you.

  19. angelsandrams @ July 19th, 2009

    im sorry for your loss. my prayers are with you.

  20. shashyah @ July 19th, 2009

    So sorry to read about this… This thought helped me get through a tough time once… ‘While you are mourning the loss of your mother, others are rejoicing to meet her behind the veil…’

  21. babycakes77 @ July 19th, 2009

    I am so sorry to hear that , my deppest regards . now she is in a better place with out pain, sorrow or sadness and with our god . I will keep you in my prayers , be strong you will over come all things throw christ . love yah

  22. hotmama @ July 19th, 2009

    Sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers

  23. chunkymunky @ July 19th, 2009

    So sorry for your loss. Thoughts are with you.

  24. beckyboo @ July 19th, 2009

    May she rest in peace with the Angels. God Bless her, and you ~~~

  25. melonclarinet @ July 20th, 2009

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m glad you have the support of your buddies here, and that you find solace in the fact that she’s no longer suffering. My prayers are with you and your family.

  26. shellibean @ July 20th, 2009

    Hi Nicole,

    So Sorry to hear about your mum.

    Can’t imagine what you must be going through.

    Love

    Shelli X

  27. meltingaway @ July 20th, 2009

    My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  28. Dagny @ July 20th, 2009

    (((Nicole))
    Sorry to hear that your mother died :(

  29. Shakeyolonbon44 @ July 25th, 2009

    im very sorry for your loss nicole. Im sure it is very bitter sweet for you, after all of the circumstances in her and your life.
    :(

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